The Tool Belt

I don't know how celebrities do it-getting used to the spotlight. I got a lecture from Colleen, who thought I was crazy for avoiding something that obviously had great meaning to me. She was probably right.

"You saved it, Jenna. Don't you care what happens now?" She remarked.

I tried to explain my feelings, but I knew it wouldn't make sense, since I didn't understand them myself. "Of course I care what happens. But, I just feel so weird about it. I can't believe I did it." I still felt a little disbelief, since I really didn't think I could do it, at first. But, I don't regret it for a minute.

I never taped the six o'clock news that featured me.

It just didn't seem right. I didn't want to see myself on camera.

I did keep the clipping from the newspaper, which noted very nicely a quote that I don't remember ever saying. I think it was really from the town: "When historic buildings are torn down or deteriorate, a part of our past disappears forever. When that happens, we lose history that helps us know who we are."

Could that be why I was so drawn to it? Would saving the house help me begin to learn who I was? If it did, I still didn't feel that the lesson was yet complete.

Thanks to the town's efforts, the house was now for sale again. The plans for the mini-mall were dismissed, and the land was being considered for rezoning to its original purpose. That was, of course, if they could find an owner who wanted to throw his money into something that was in desperate need of love.